My personal triumph of the will over the secret, federal MK-ULTRA and Manchurian Candidate programs for the kids of the “elite”

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….By the Grace of God, I overcame

All of us have been or are being abused by the Jew World Order: emotionally, psychologically, economically, verbally, physically or sexually — or all of the above, as I was.

Age eight, two years before I ran away from home.


Some, as children of the “elite,” or other groups, are groomed to be powerful puppets, figurehead presidents and mind-controlled senators, others are media figures who spew lies without blushing and still others are rock’n roll stars who openly or subtly promote satanic messages, and these human puppets, as kids, have gone through, and suffered in, ultra-abuse programs far more excruciating than what the average citizen endures in our psychopath-ruled society.

But all of us can escape the mental and spiritual hell and be free. I escaped, and this is my story.

I watched the 2004 version of “Manchurian Candidate” (with Denzel Washington) on a friend’s Amazon Prime “streaming video.” (You have to sign up for a 30-day free trial, then it costs $2.99.)

The MC’s ex-girlfriend tells him he has changed, and in a scary way, and thus she cannot consider ever getting back together with him.


Merryl Streep does a fantastic job as a sort-of Hillary-type female national politician….very chilling and power-mad. This woman will stop at nothing, and I mean n-o-t-h-i-n-g; you’ll see……
One of two really shocking, appalling scenes; a totally innocent US Army soldier stands there, zombyized by torture, and awaits his death at the hands of another zombyized soldier.
Good book
By the way, the book Marks co-wrote, The CIA and the Cult of Intelligence, was a 1974 book of huge importance.
The CIA and the Cult of Intelligence is a 1974 controversial non-fiction political book written by Victor Marchetti, a former special assistant to the Deputy Director of the Central Intelligence Agency, and John D. Marks, a former officer of the United States Department of State.[1]


The book discusses how the CIA works and how its original purpose (i.e. collecting and analyzing information about foreign governments, corporations, and persons in order to advise public policymakers) has, according to the author, been subverted by its obsession with clandestine operations.

It is the first book the federal government of the United States ever went to court to censor before its publication. The CIA demanded the authors remove 399 passages but they resisted and only 168 passages were censored.[2] The publisher, Alfred A. Knopf, chose to publish the book with blanks for censored passages and with boldface type for passages that were challenged but later uncensored.[1]

The book was a critically acclaimed bestseller whose publication contributed to the establishment of the Church Committee, a United States Senate Select committee to study governmental operations with respect to intelligence activities, in 1975.[3] The book was published in paperback by Dell Publishing in 1975. […]

Traditionally, the cult’s hope has been to foster a world order in which America would reign supreme, the unchallenged international leader. And I knew the co-author, Victor Marchetti. When I worked for the late, great Willis Carto ( the first time (1987-93; later I did work for him 2005-08) my office in the then Liberty Building of Liberty Lobby, right on Capitol Hill, was right next to his, and after hours we would talk…..

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia []

Victor Marchetti


Victor L. Marchetti, Jr. (born December 23, 1929)[1] is a former special assistant to the Deputy Director of the Central Intelligence Agency and a prominent paleoconservative critic of the United States Intelligence Community and the Israel lobby in the United States.[2]


Early life[edit]

While serving as an active-duty American soldier, Marchetti was recruited into the intelligence agencies in 1952 during the Cold War to engage in espionage against East Germany.

Central Intelligence Agency[edit]

Marchetti’s application for employment in the Central Intelligence Agency was accepted on October 3, 1955.[3]

JdN: CIA HQ in Langley, Virginia

On that day, he signed an oath stating that he would not divulge any classified information that he gleaned while employed at the CIA.[3] Marchetti worked as a specialist on the USSR. He was a leading CIA expert on Third World aid, with a focus on USSR military supplies to Cuba after the end of the Kennedy administration.[citation needed]

In 1966 Marchetti was promoted to the office of special assistant to the Chief of Planning, Programming, and Budgeting, and a special assistant to CIA Director Richard Helms.

Within three years Marchetti became disillusioned with the policies and practices of the CIA. On September 2, 1969, Marchetti resigned from the CIA, signing a second secrecy oath.[3]

2013 protest outside CIA HQ: “Witness against torture”

Afterwards, Marchetti wrote an exposé of the CIA in a book published in 1971 entitled The Rope Dancer.[4]


Later Marchetti published books critical of the CIA with author John D. Marks. The books included, The CIA and the Cult of Intelligence (1973).[5] Before this book was published, the CIA demanded that Marchetti remove 399 passages, but Marchetti resisted and only 168 passages were censored.[6] It is the first book the federal government of the United States ever went to court to censor before its publication. The publisher (Alfred A. Knopf) chose to publish the book with blanks for censored passages and with boldface type for passages that were challenged but later uncensored.[citation needed]

In 1976 Marchetti published Foreign and Military Intelligence and in 1978 he published an article about the JFK assassination in the far-right newspaper of the Liberty Lobby, The Spotlight.

Marchetti, a proponent of the organized crime and the CIA conspiracy theory, claimed that the House Select Committee on Assassinations revealed a CIA memo from 1966 that named E. Howard Hunt, Frank Sturgis and Gerry Patrick Hemming in the JFK assassination. Marchetti also claimed that Marita Lorenz offered sworn testimony to confirm this.

In 1981, E. Howard Hunt sued the Liberty Lobby and Marchetti for defamation and won $650,000 in damages. Liberty Lobby appealed the case with lawyer, Mark Lane.

JdN: JFK and Lane in 1960; I met Lane and his wife Trisha in 1990 in their home on Capitol Hill

Marchetti, Liberty Lobby and Lane won the appeal in 1995. Lane wrote a book, Plausible Denial, to describe the unfolding of that historic trial.


At the time, Marchetti and lawyer Mark Lane put out a newsletter about Israel and its atrocities and infiltration of the US government.

I remember Marchetti looking at me once. as if to say “there is something about you I cannot put my finger on.” And now I know what it was, but for years I could not “put my finger on it either”…. why I had horrific nightmares, insomnia and thus huge blue-black circles under my eyes, and my hands slightly shook.

I will go into it soon. I will just say this:

The horrible “beauty” about the Manchurian Candidate program is the victim does not know they were ever tortured — or anything else about it.

So they do not rebel, or become whistleblowers, or anything.

THEY DON’T KNOW WHAT WAS DONE TO THEM, OR BY WHOM, OR WHY, OR HOW. They know more about the movie “Gone with the Wind” than about decisive, life-changing things that happened to them

What they do know they have is mind-bending nightmares – when the suppressed stuff comes back in dreams. and then they naively think:

“What-is-WRONG with me?!”

Wrong question!

This is the correct question:

“What WRONGS did secret government agents do to innocent, trusting adults and child?”

And now an excerpt from



David Duke denies the Jews did 9/11 and a comrade asks why. He sent me a copy of his email to 9/11 truther and expert Chris Bollyn. Excerpt:

”I posted a comment discussing you and your book on the discussion forum below David Duke’s new video about his new book, The Illustrated Protocols of Zion.

(My comment is under the screen name “explodingbee.”)

I called him out for refusing to acknowledge the Jewish role in 9/11.

More than a day has elapsed and so far neither David Duke nor anyone else has responded. (But I did notice that David Duke had had this video at the top of his website for some time and now there is a blank space [at the upper right of the main page] where this video used to be. Maybe he removed it because he was uncomfortable with my comment.)”

I replied:

“Good for you. There are many very, very strange things about Duke. He himself told me and Margi at our apartment in Alexandria, Va. in early 2006 that the Jews did not do 9/11 and we both were taken aback. I now am going with the MK-ULTRA theory, which I lay out here in detail.”

….Duke, I, and the induction of the gifted white children of US military officers into the MK-ULTRA program

This blog was and is a major statement about my life and what happened to me as a child, — until I ran away from home at age ten. I am now certain, after much information-gathering and analysis, that I was an MK-ULTRA inductee myself, and was in the program until age ten.
I am further convinced that David Duke still is in the program, possibly unbeknownst to himself.
[08:33:06] R: Did your parents know? They must have.
[08:34:40] John de Nugent: I think my father was told it would be some elite, top-secret program for special children who had been selected for their vast potential to be leaders.
The military is always promoting elite courses and elite units as things to get into. Why not tell a proud and ambitious man (like my father) “your son could be President of the United States some day after he passes our special, select leadership training program!”
The way I know my dad, he would have gotten very excited about that prospect, and he did love me.
He himself was the youngest president of any Rotary Club in the United States at age 35, in Providence, Rhode Island in 1961-62. For his military service in WWII, he would join the Marines, not the Army, of course, and it is no surprise that he fought as a staff sergeant at the famous battle of Iwo Jima.
Then he went on to Marine officer school at Quantico, Virginia in 1951 and then into the Korean War — and served there in the trenches, with 50% of his class being killed or wounded.
Marines in Korea, next to Siberia, prepare to fire mortars at the Chinese.
He gave me this beautiful Iwo Jima commemorative lamp. “The few, the proud, the Marines” — that was how he thought about everything — be ELITE; be the best.iwo-jima-marine-lamp
So everything about this MK-ULTRA scenario fits, esp. the part about the military-officer father, as it does with Colonel Duke and HIS son. I met the father in 1989, btw, in Duke’s office/HQ in Metairie, Louisiana.
Returning to my own father, I remember one Christmas, spent down at my father’s small mansion off the beach in Vero Beach, Florida, in a gated community onb the beach on Route A1A.
I was sitting on this bright couch in the photo, right where my dad is seated in this 2007 family photo, a pic taken when he turned 70. (I am seen here upper-left, leaning on said couch, and Margi is lower-right. Older daughter Ingrid, now a mother of two, is between Margi and my father.)

My father with President Ronald Reagan, who twice pled with him to join the National Security Council, or to become US Ambassador to Hungary.



Anyway, I was enjoying some quiet time despite the family Christmas festivities and I was reading something (as usual 😉 ).

In fact, I was sitting on exactly that white sofa depicted above, about where Ingrid is sitting. Suddenly, I sensed a strong gaze on me.

I looked up from my book.

My father was looking at me with a deep look of sorrow and remorse in his eyes.

I had seen my father cry just once in his life, at his father’s funeral in Cranston, Rhode Island. But I had never seen my father look at me the way he did, as if to say “I wish I could undo the past.” :-(




Moving on to David Duke, the parallels in terms of MK-ULTRA are endless.

From People magazine, 1991 (,,20111291,00.html)

[David Duke] was born in Oklahoma, where his father, David H. Duke, 79, worked for Shell Oil as an engineer. Over the years the family, including David’s older sister, Dotti, 46, and his mother, Maxine, 77, moved frequently. The elder David was a stern, demanding father who insisted that his children excel in school.

“Even during summer vacation [he] would sit us down and give us at least four hours of homework to do,” says Dotti, who is married and living in Oregon.



Defense Intelligence Agency

From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
This article is about the United States agency. For other uses see Dia (disambiguation).
Defense Intelligence Agency
US Defense Intelligence Agency (DIA) seal.png

Seal of the Defense Intelligence Agency
Agency overview
Formed 1 October 1961[1]
Headquarters DIA Headquarters, Joint Base Anacostia-Bolling,Washington, D.C[2]
Motto Committed to Excellence in Defense of the Nation
Employees Classified
Approx. 17,000 (65% civilian and 35% military)
Annual budget Classified
Agency executives Lt. Gen.Michael T. Flynn, Director
David Shedd, Deputy Director
Parent agency Department of Defense

The Defense Intelligence Agency (DIA) is the main foreign military espionage organization of the United States, operating under the jurisdiction of Department of Defense (DoD). As one of the principal members of the U.S. Intelligence Community (IC), DIA informs national civilian and defense policymakers about the military intentions and capabilities of foreign governments and non-state actors, while also providing department-level intelligence assistance and coordination to individual military service intelligence components and the warfighter.[3] The agency’s role encompasses collection and analysis of defense-related foreign political, economic, industrial, geographic, andmedical and health intelligence.[4] As part of its national IC [intelligence community] responsibilities, DIA regularly provides input for the President’s Daily Brief.

Though sometimes compared to foreign military intelligence services, like the Russian GRU or Israeli Aman, DIA is unique in that two-thirds of its 17,000 employees are civilians[5][6] and the agency’s structure bears resemblance to that of its civilian counterpart. DIA’s intelligence operations in support of U.S. national security extend far beyond the zones of combat – at hundreds of locations and U.S. Embassies in approximately 140 countries.[7] The agency primarily specializes in collection and analysis of human-source intelligence (HUMINT), has its own Clandestine Service and is in charge of American military-diplomatic efforts overseas.[8]


In Dotti’s view, though, David’s relationship with his mother left an equally deep mark. From about the time David was a toddler, says Dotti, Maxine developed a serious drinking problem. Once a superb athlete, she became increasingly debilitated by alcohol, prescription-drug abuse and a series of strokes; long bedridden and her mind a ruin, she lives with Dotti. Duke’s apparent response to this behavior was characteristic of many children of alcoholics. “My brother became the perfectionist,” says Dotti. “His obsession began with wanting to right wrongs and wanting to make things go right.”

See more below on me, David Duke and MK-ULTRA: two nordic-looking boys with stern, highly connected, politically conservative military officers as fathers. And both would end up prominent in white nationalism and now as total enemies, both personally and on the key question of where our movement should go.

I began wondering back in 2005 if any key people in the WN movement might be so-called “Manchurian candidates.”

Why actually would the CIA not target white nationalists?  Why would it not abduct and brainwash kids and adults –as it does with just regular civilians — and turn them into being that are, in effect, remote-controlled, mind-controlled and programmed – via intense weeks or months of mental and physical torture and certain drugs, sleep withdrawal, etc.

The purpose of this torture was and is to create a split personality.

One personality is “normal” and “functional” but another, newly created, is hidden and buried away. Its existence is not known to the person so tortured and so traumatized. He/she has been trained by indescribably terrible trauma and fear to carry out orders unquestioningly — stimulus-and response, like Pavlov’s dog — when a certain verbal command is given by the CIA’s contact person, triggering the action by the Manchurian candidate.

This concept of hyper-traumatic obedience training has been explored in several films, such as the “Bourne Conspiracy” movies with Matt Damon (whose character finds out, to his utter shock, that he is a highly-trained, no, a supremely trained killer, and then he seeks to help other CIA whistle-blowers on the run from the Agency while figuring out what they did to him). And of course there have been several “Manchurian Candidate” movies.

Bourne Conspiracy




What makes this relevant to the cause of White survival is this:

Obviously, a Jew-run government would be highly concerned about American antisemitic movements and seek to infiltrate and control them as well as oppose them — and keep them small, divided and weak.

“Controlled opposition” is the term used in politology.

Keep them small, weak and despised — and make sure the groups that do eke out an existence are actually run by people who consciously (or. in the case of MK-ULTRA, unconsciously) are doing the government’s bidding. If you crush a movement by brute force, after all, you just make martyrs, especially in a country that supposedly values the First Amendment and free speech, and its guaranteed right to criticize the state without reprisals.

But if you simply constantly disrupt it — by having your agents inside it in key positions of leadership — it never grows, being:

1) full of constant infighting, and defamation by controlled leaders of any non-controlled and thus genuine leaders, and 2

2) promoting views that the general public will never accept, or no more than 5-10%.

Now let us define MK-ULTRA:

Here is a good but incomplete article on the CIA’s mind-control program, MK-ULTRA:

This Wikipedia article on it at least admits that a Jewish psychiatrist ran it:


The project’s intentionally oblique CIA cryptonym is made up of thedigraphMK, meaning that the project was sponsored by the agency’s Technical Services Staff, followed by the word Ultra (which had previously been used to designate the most secret classification of World War II intelligence). Other related cryptonyms includeProject MKNAOMI and Project MKDELTA.

Headed by Sidney Gottlieb,

…..the MK-Ultra project was started on the order of CIA director Allen Welsh Dulles on April 13, 1953.[16]


In 1964, the project was renamed MK-SEARCH. The project attempted to produce a perfect truth drug for use in interrogating suspected Soviet spies during the Cold War, and generally to explore any other possibilities of mind control.

Another MKUltra effort, Subproject 54, was the Navy’s top secret “Perfect Concussion” program, which was supposed to use sub-aural frequency blasts to erase memory. However, the program was never carried out.[21]

Because most MK-Ultra records were deliberately destroyed in 1973 by order of then CIA director Richard Helms,

it has been difficult, if not impossible, for investigators to gain a complete understanding of the more than 150 individually funded research sub-projects sponsored by MKUltra and related CIA programs.[22]

[My comment: Any program designated “Ultra” obviously had the highest security classification. I find the use of the Jewish female name “Naomi” also of interest.]

Canadian experiments

Donald Ewen Cameron c. 1967

The experiments were exported to Canada when the CIA recruited Scottish psychiatrist Donald Ewen Cameron, creator of the “psychic driving” concept, which the CIA found particularly interesting.

Cameron had been hoping to correct schizophrenia by erasing existing memories and reprogramming the psyche. He commuted from Albany, New York, to Montreal every week to work at the Allan Memorial Institute of McGill University [photo] and was paid $69,000 from 1957 to 1964 to carry out MK-Ultra experiments there.

These research funds were sent to Dr. Cameron by a CIA front organization, the Society for the Investigation of Human Ecology, and as shown in internal CIA documents, Dr. Cameron did not know that the money originated from the CIA.[41]

In addition to LSD, Cameron also experimented with various paralytic drugs as well as electroconvulsive therapyat thirty to forty times the normal power.

His “driving” experiments consisted of putting subjects into drug-induced coma for weeks at a time (up to three months in one case) while playing tape loops of noise or simple repetitive statements. His experiments were typically carried out on patients who had entered the institute for minor problems such as anxiety disorders and postpartum depression, many of whom suffered permanently from his actions.[42] His treatments resulted in victims’incontinence, amnesia, forgetting how to talk, forgetting their parents, and thinking their interrogators were their parents.[43] His work was inspired and paralleled by the British psychiatrist William Sargant at St Thomas’ Hospital, London, and Belmont Hospital, Surrey, who was also involved in the Intelligence Services and who experimented extensively on his patients without their consent, causing similarlong-term damage.[44]

…In his 2009 book, A Terrible Mistake, researcher H. P. Albarelli Jr. concurs with the Olson family and concludes that [CIA and MK-ULTRA official] Frank Olson was murdered because a personal crisis of conscience made it likely he would divulge state secrets concerning several CIA programs, chief among them Project ARTICHOKE and an MK-DELTA project code-named Project SPAN. Albarelli theorizes that Project SPAN involved the contamination of food supplies and the aerosolized spraying of a potent LSD mixture in the village of Pont-Saint-Esprit , France in August, 1951.

The 1951 Pont-Saint-Esprit mass poisoning resulted in mass psychosis, 32 commitments to mental institutions, and at least seven deaths.

[JdN: Aside from the fact that it was outrageous that we poisoned people in a friendly, allied, NATO country without the permission of the innocent villagers, as human guinea pigs, or the approval of their government!]


In this fascinating and disturbing documentary movie about the Port Arthur massacre in Australia, toward the end, the brave ex-wife of a top Marine colonel named George Griffs, one Kay Griggs (in photo on left), reveals that the US had a program to turn kids via mind control into ruthless killers and hitmen.



And now I will segué into the eerie parallels between me and David Duke and our inevitable clash — one, a man who broke free of MK-ULTRA, and another who is still its thrall.

Suppose the Jews decided to create, not one, but two Aryan-looking heroic figures to be their puppets and to ensure that the white movement went nowhere despite lots of sputtering?

Suppose they went to two colonels, one Army and one Marine Corps, and said: “WE WANT YOUR SON FOR SPECIAL TRAINING. It is a top-secret elite program, it is very demanding, but some day your boy might be PRESIDENT OF THE UNITED STATES.” Many a father might say “yes!”

My father with President Gerald Ford


Henry Kissinger (l), my father (r)


I have written frequently (but mainly in the 2008-09 period) on how I woke up at age 49 to the real reason for the endless nightmares I suffered during my childhood, teenager and adult years, namely sexual abuse when I was a child.

It was so bad, by design, that I have no detailed memories of the incidents, which are totally blocked out. What I have is every troubling sign of the abuse, such as extreme nightmares and literal fainting (losing consciousness) when shown certain images, especially the male reproductive system and genitalia. I passed out during a lecture on male anatomy at Georgetown University.

I remember running away from home at age ten and having memories after this date.

I remember my mother feeding me a blue pill and then the world whirling about me, and seeing an old man stomp baby birds into mush before my eyes.

That is a typical traumatization technique, to kill baby animals or birds in front of the child so as to inflict extreme terror on the child — the fear that that he would be next to be killed if he did not submit and obey.

In the worst-case scenarios, children are forced to themselves kill a baby animal such as a baby goat, or to stab out the eyes of a bunny, or — in the ultimate horror — participate in the murder of another child.

All of these techniques are used also in satanic rituals involving children: (Scroll down 1/4 to “====MICHAEL AQUINO”)


There ain’t nothing the Jews have done worse than this. This is why judaism must be banned under the RICO Act and dissolved as a criminal, psychopathic, and truly genocidal mind CULT. It is not a religion, but a nightmare of slavery and death for all humankind.

Anton LeVay, 1930-97, founder of modern satanism, born Howard Stanton Levy



The Great Seal of the United States since 1935 (Roosevelt) has this at the top. Go out and find a one-dollar bill — and finally take a real good look at the back.

In Latin: “Our plan has ripened/ New World Order”

I watched the full (one-hour) 2003 German documentary Höllenleben — Der Kampf der Opfer rituellen Missbrauches in Deutschland (“Life in hell: the struggle of the victims of ritual abuse in Germany”)


…..The day I ran away for ten miles without stopping

MK-ULTRA is M-ind, K-osher — Ultra-[severe torture]

Since the 1950s there has been a scientific rape-torture-traumatization government programdesigned to create split personalities — called MK-ULTRA.

I am now 100% certain, having known and observed David Duke for 25 years, that both Duke and I, sons of high-ranking military officers with high government connections, were forced into it as small children, and that Duke is STILL in this program.

I escaped it by running away from home in 1964, and my parents at age ten. Then, mysteriously, our house was set on fire.


I knew that my father had high hopes for me…. He was a very proud man…. Nothing he want more than successful sons, too.

I once found by accident in the coat closet, in a manila envelope, a confidential report about my IQ as measured by the Stanford-Binet-Wechsler test. It urged I be given a top education in view of the score and to avoid the boredom that would come from being around regular children.

Was my father then approached by some member of the military or CIA with the proposal that they take me away weekends for some “special, elite program”?

I already know my father was involved with something very murky in WWII. …. The Japanese would do terrible things to captured, live US Marines.

This is a screenshot of the first episode of the HBO-Tom Hanks series “The Pacific” about the Marines fighting the Japanese in WWII.

The Marine was found tied to a tree….. I’ll leave out the other details.

The troops file past his body as the sergeant warns “This is what the Japs do to you if they capture you.”


Btw, the superb movie “the Thin Red Line” has a scene where US Army soldiers on Guadalcanal come across the body of a fellow American soldier after the Japs got through with him. If any WWII Pacific vet says “God, how we hated the Japs,” now you know why.


Well, my father called me once in 2000 from Vero Beach, Florida, and said, to my shock, quite “sloshed”:

“I’m going to tell you what went on in the Philippines…. and then you will UNDERSTAND… THEN you will UNDERSTAND!”

I was stunned. But then he thought better of it and said: “…but not tonight.” Click.

He was involved in….something. I am certain it was revenge torture-killings. He said there was a “special unit.” 🙁

So my father was already one who would say yes to secret activities in a special unit.

What they did to me I have no idea. (Maybe thank God.)

I only know that I began having memories of my childhood after age ten, after I ran away from home. I ran eight miles without stopping, crossing from Rumford in East Providence, Rhode island through the city of Providence to North Providence, running along the highway 146. I was not fleeing my parents but something else, and having made my point, I stopped running and asked a nice lady to call home for me. I had made my point, I was taken out of the elite prep school, and we moved to another town. It was time for a change of scenery, and I think whatever was happening ended.

I ran for miles without stopping (being then, as now, in exceptional physical shape; I set a track record at my private school, Moses _Brown), from Rumford, Rhode Island (on the right) through downtown Providence to North Providence.


The house I ran from, 17 Huntington Drive, Rumford , Rhode Island. Shortly after, it was gutted by a mysterious fire.



I ran past my father’s skyscraper on the right, where he eventually leased the entire floor and had 70 employees.


I ran past the Rhode Island State House.


…and up Route 146 toward North Providence… turning left onto Mineral Spring Avenue, the route to my trusted grandparents’ house.


I only remember this, as stated above: my mother gave me once a blue pill and the whole world began swirling around my head. I ran outside and collapsed in the grass. then I saw that vicious old man with his boots, crushing those baby birds into mush before my eyes. And that is a classic MK-ULTRA technique.

The point is to engender such terror that the child’s personality splits, and then train him for some task his conscious mind is unaware of.

Was mine to be a puppet US senator, or a puppet president of the United States, under the control of MK-ULTRA? Was I to be what Trump is now?

If so, they failed. I rebelled and left the program. Coming from a famous family, they decided perhaps that they could not just kill me.



Why did they choose me?



Two final anecdotes:

I always thought it strange that my brother would incessantly jiggle his right knee and twirl the hair on the top of his head. He is not crazy at all, no more than I am, but a very funny, charismatic, likable college graduate who studied business. He said to me once, tight-lipped, when I asked him if he ever had nightmares:

“Nightmares? All the time!” But he is as tight-lipped as…well…a Manchurian Candidate?

(Todd is wearing a baseball cap and hoisting a brew; cute babes are always around Todd. 😉 )

In 1999 I flew to Austria to court yet another Tyrolean gal as my first wife had been. I had been chatting her up online and we had sort-of hit it off. She was in Wörgl [photo] and worked at a chemical factory in Kundl.


She asked me once: “My mother was watching you, and watching your hands. Do you know your hands tremble all the time? She says maybe you are a junkie. So I have to ask you: Are you on drugs?”

No, my dear, I was not.

But that one question as to why my hands shook began to awaken me to the unspeakable crimes against some of the best, most elite, most nordic white children that are committed by the psychopathic and monstrous Talmudic Jews.




……There must be healing

The atmosphere of the earth is filling up with pain.

It is time for a new religion to save Aryans from the Jews, and enlist other humans in our struggle so they to can live decent lives.

The Valhalla Temple in Germany




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…..Reaction of a comrade


Hi, John.
Man…..All I can say is if your Marine father had any idea what was happening he would have probably brought the perpetrator up to his office and thrown him/them out the window–at the very least.
It looks like your dad’s prominence saved you, and your family.
I first read about MK-Ultra on — generally a good site but no mention of the Jews.
It was the first thing I ever read that made my stomach turn. The thought that people just could do stuff like that to kids didn’t compute, but now that it’s clear these “people” aren’t truly human, I can understand.
It’s really horrible that something like this was even allowed to happen, but it’s just the peak of the mountain when it comes to human experimentation.
Here, John this page is still up.  It amazes me that it is, unless Israel uses it as leverage against our .gov
(I just made it into a static webpage on my own website also:
Here is the excerpt specifically on MK-ULTRA:



In 1953, the CIA placed several of its interrogation and mind-control programs under the direction of a single program, known by the code name MKULTRA, after CIA director Allen Dulles complained about not having enough “human guinea pigs to try these extraordinary techniques”.[126]

The MKULTRA project was under the direct command of Dr. Sidney Gottlieb of the Technical Services Division.[126]


The project received over $25 million, and involved hundreds of experiments on human subjects at eighty different institutions.

In a memo describing the purpose of one MKULTRA program subprogram, Richard Helms said:

We intend to investigate the development of a chemical material which causes a reversible, nontoxic aberrant mental state, the specific nature of which can be reasonably well predicted for each individual. This material could potentially aid in discrediting individuals, eliciting information, and implanting suggestions and other forms of mental control.

— Richard Helms, internal CIA memo[127]

In 1954, the CIA’s Project QKHILLTOP was created to study Chinese brainwashing techniques, and to develop effective methods of interrogation. Most of the early studies are believed to have been performed by the Cornell University Medical School’s human ecology study programs, under the direction of Dr. Harold Wolff.[113][128][129] Wolff requested that the CIA provide him any information they could find regarding “threats, coercion, imprisonment, deprivation, humiliation, torture, ‘brainwashing’, ‘black psychiatry’, and hypnosis, or any combination of these, with or without chemical agents.” According to Wolff, the research team would then:

…assemble, collate, analyze and assimilate this information and will then undertake experimental investigations designed to develop new techniques of offensive/defensive intelligence use … Potentially useful secret drugs (and various brain damaging procedures) will be similarly tested in order to ascertain the fundamental effect upon human brain function and upon the subject’s mood … Where any of the studies involve potential harm of the subject, we expect the Agency to make available suitable subjects and a proper place for the performance of the necessary experiments.

— Dr. Harold Wolff, Cornell University Medical School[129]

“… it was fun, fun, fun. Where else could a red-blooded American boy lie, kill, cheat, steal, rape and pillage with the sanction and bidding of the All-highest?”

George Hunter White, who oversaw drug experiments for the CIA as part of Operation Midnight Climax[130]

Another of the MKULTRA subprojects, Operation Midnight Climax, consisted of a web of CIA-run safehouses in San Francisco, Marin, and New York which were established in order to study the effects of LSD on unconsenting individuals. Prostitutes on the CIA payroll were instructed to lure clients back to the safehouses, where they were surreptitiously plied with a wide range of substances, including LSD, and monitored behind one-way glass. Several significant operational techniques were developed in this theater, including extensive research into sexual blackmail, surveillance technology, and the possible use of mind-altering drugs in field operations.[130]

In 1957, with funding from a CIA front organization, Dr. Ewen Cameron of the Allan Memorial Institute in Montreal, Canada began MKULTRA Subproject 68.[131] His experiments were designed to first “depattern” individuals, erasing their minds and memories—reducing them to the mental level of an infant—and then to “rebuild” their personality in a manner of his choosing.[132]

To achieve this, Cameron placed patients under his “care” into drug-induced comas for up to 88 days, and applied numerous high voltage electric shocks to them over the course of weeks or months, often administering up to 360 shocks per person.

He would then perform what he called “psychic driving” experiments on the subjects, where he would repetitively play recorded statements, such as “You are a good wife and mother and people enjoy your company”, through speakers he had implanted into blacked-out football helmets that he bound to the heads of the test subjects (for sensory deprivation purposes).

The patients could do nothing but listen to these messages, played for 16–20 hours a day, for weeks at a time. In one case, Cameron forced a person to listen to a message non-stop for 101 days.[132]

Using CIA funding, Cameron converted the horse stables behind Allan Memorial into an elaborate isolation and sensory deprivation chamber where he kept patients locked in for weeks at a time.[132] Cameron also induced insulin comas in his subjects by giving them large injections of insulin, twice a day, for up to two months at a time.[113]

Several of the children who Cameron experimented on were sexually abused, in at least one case by several men. One of the children was filmed numerous times performing sexual acts with high-ranking federal government officials, in a scheme set up by Cameron and other MKULTRA researchers, to blackmail the officials to ensure further funding for the experiments.[133]

“The frequent screams of the patients that echoed through the hospital did not deter Cameron or most of his associates in their attempts to depattern their subjects completely.”

John D. Marks, The Search for the Manchurian Candidate, Chapter 8[134]

The CIA leadership had serious concerns about these activities, as evidenced in a 1957 Inspector General Report, which stated:

Precautions must be taken not only to protect operations from exposure to enemy forces but also to conceal these activities from the American public in general. The knowledge that the agency is engaging in unethical and illicit activities would have serious repercussions in political and diplomatic circles …

— 1957 CIA Inspector General Report[135]

In 1963, CIA had synthesized many of the findings from its psychological research into what became known as the KUBARK Counterintelligence Interrogation handbook,[136] which cited the MKULTRA studies and other secret research programs as the scientific basis for their interrogation methods.[132] Cameron regularly traveled around the U.S. teaching military personnel about his techniques (hooding of prisoners for sensory deprivation, prolonged isolation, humiliation, etc.), and how they could be used in interrogations.

Latin American paramilitary groups working for the CIA and U.S. military received training in these psychological techniques at places such as the School of the Americas.

In the 21st century, many of the torture techniques developed in the MKULTRAstudies and other programs are being used at U.S. military and CIA prisons such as Guantanamo Bay and Abu Ghraib.[132][137]




US prison Abu Ghraib brings “IRAQI FREEDOM”

















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Ernst Zündel experienced this in a Pigeon Forge, Tennessee jail before he was expelled to Canada!


Good old Israeli advisors at Abu Ghraib



In the aftermath of the Congressional hearings, major news media mainly focused on sensationalistic stories related to LSD, “mind-control”, and “brainwashing”, and rarely used the word “torture”. This suggested that CIA researchers were, as one author put it “a bunch of bumbling sci-fi buffoons”, rather than a rational group of men who had run torture laboratories and medical experiments in major U.S. universities;

they had arranged for torture, rape and psychological abuse of adults and young children, driving many of them permanently insane.[132]


MKULTRA activities continued until 1973 when CIA director Richard Helms, fearing that they would be exposed to the public, ordered the project terminated, and all of the files destroyed.[126] But, a clerical error had sent many of the documents to the wrong office, so when CIA workers were destroying the files, some of them remained. They were later released under a Freedom of Information Act request by investigative journalist John Marks. Many people in the American public were outraged when they learned of the experiments, and several congressional investigations took place, including the Church Committee and theRockefeller Commission.

On April 26, 1976, the Church Committee of the United States Senate issued a report, Final Report of the Select Committee to Study Governmental Operation with Respect to Intelligence Activities,[138] In Book I, Chapter XVII, p. 389, this report states:

LSD was one the materials tested in the MKULTRA program. The final phase of LSD testing involved surreptitious administration to unwitting non-volunteer subjects in normal life settings by undercover officers of the Bureau of Narcotics acting for the CIA.

A special procedure, designated MKDELTA, was established to govern the use of MKULTRA materials abroad. Such materials were used on a number of occasions. Because MKULTRA records were destroyed, it is impossible to reconstruct the operational use of MKULTRA materials by the CIA overseas; it has been determined that the use of these materials abroad began in 1953, and possibly as early as 1950.[116][139][140][141][142]

Drugs were used primarily as an aid to interrogations, but MKULTRA/MKDELTA materials were also used for harassment, discrediting, or disabling purposes.[116][139][140][141][142]

I replied:
Thanks for reading my long blog. So far no one else has commented. Maybe its length intimidated them, or maybe the subject material is just too overwhelming and something they cannot relate to.
Margi said to me last night she thought I should NOT bring up the Manchurian-Candidate/MK-ULTRA thing, saying that the Jew would use that to spread the following around online, and actually someone online already does:
“He admit’s he is MK-ULTRA. He is probably still under mind control and they can just give him a command and off he goes.”
Two things on that:
One, we must raise consciousness and awareness about this terrible program. Otherwise it is the “perfect crime” — to create maybe legions of Americans in high positions in society who are under orders and themselves do not realize it! As Goethe said (slightly paraphrased): “Niemand ist versklavter, als der, der sich frei wähnt.” That is, “no one is more enslaved than a slave who deludes himself that he is free.”
If you are being beaten or whipped, waterboarded or raped, at least you know they are doing it, and you can hate them (yes, IMO one is allowed to hate psychopaths, because they are very deliberately, very knowingly evil, and in fact they love evil) and you can rebel, plot revenge and plan their downfall.
But if unaware of the whole concept of MK-ULTRA, then you wrongly assume (to the secret gloating and sadistic joy of your abusers) that “something is wrong with me; I am mentally ill.”
Thus the victim cooperates in his own further downfall. He then harms himself by letting the psychiatrists talk him into getting on eight different psych meds with myriad side-effects, and can even lose at some point the right to own firearms, which can be a life-and-death issue in the future if a race war happens.
In my own case, my horrific nightmares (which also made two wives and two girlfriend very unhappy sleeping next to me on the nightmare nights) led to them telling me I had “insomnia”…..and they got me to engage in sleep studies.
I remember once going to, maybe, Children’s Hospital in Boston (this was a good 20 years ago), and they put electrodes on my skull as I slept. What struck me is they found zero abnormalities in my brain and sleep patterns.
Hmmmm….. this result certainly raised some questions.
“So why am I having violent nightmares and rage and terror if I am NOT crazy at all , or suffering from a physical, neurological brain problem? Am I in fact re-experiencing something that really happened, like a combat PTSD, a flashback to some real, horrible wartime experience?”
Two, actually what I am most proud of is they failed to break me.
When I ran away, I think they gave up, and I have lots of memories of my childhood and youth after that point.
Maybe I am one of the very few or only MK-ULTRA victims whom they were unable to break and then did not kill.
Perhaps I refused to carry out orders, such as to torture or kill a little animal or even a fellow child.
In both the Manchurian Candidate movies (spoiler alert) the 1962 one with Frank Sinatra as the Army oficer who wants to get to the bottom of all this and with Angela Lansbury as the evil programmer, and also in the 2004 one with Denzel Washington and Merryl Streep, the victim, Raymond Shaw, as a test of total obedience, is ordered to walk over and strangle a fellow soldier — and he does.
Strikingly, the other soldier does not resist but obeys the order to sit there quietly and cooperate. (Kinda reminds you of white people today… Maybe America as a whole is one big MK-ULTRA program.)
This is a good overview of the 1962 version: .


Here is a shocking scene of total obedience on the part of both strangler and stranglee:



Btw, oh my God, it just occurred to me — maybe — why this is why Angela Merkel has that first name…..the German woman bringing hordes of muslim rapist-killers into her own country, even thogh it is resulting in a disaster at the polls for her own party and her reputation.
Anyway, then, facing an unprecedented failure of their ultra-torture program to succeed (and it is “ultra-torture” because it is so bad your brain cannot bear to think about it, and just locks it away in a separate personality, called now “dissociation”) they had to face the fact that for reasons of my family’s prominence (and maybe a subtle factor of divine protection) they needed to hold back from simply rubbing me out as they might usually do.
Now, had I been a kid from the rough side of Chelsea or Lowell (towns near Boston) , or like the troubled white working-class families families depicted in the excellent Clint Eastwood movie “Mystic,” I would have just “disappeared” and become yet another missing child report.
Two perverts posing as cops “arrest” a boy and are “taking him to the station.”
In the 2003 film, the character played by Tim Robbins is actually doomed by NOT talking — out of pride and fear of ridicule —  to his wife as an adult about his childhood. (He had been the boy abducted in the photo above, and had been raped for days in a grimy cellar. The solution back then when hc came home was “boys don’t cry; get over it, kid.”)   
I therefore thank the gods for protecting me. Now I am obligated to use well the life that they spared — so that none of our children ever, ever again falls into the den of these indescribable monsters. The torture of HELPLESS children is such a vile and unnatural crime, as Thomas Jefferson would say, “against Nature and Nature’s God.”
The children are our future, and little beings our every instinct tells us to cherish, love and protect.



  1. I am at a loss for words. This is a profound piece because it provides clear documentation of the fact that the wicked MK Ultra program actually existed -which truly outlandish- paired with your very intense personal experiences as a subject of these depraved experiments -also outlandish. All true though. I have come to recently realize that, indeed, evil is very real and that the evil ones promulgate their wicked intentions with zeal and vigor on a daily basis in order to satiate their compulsions, which are all of the evil things of this world. It certainly involves wiping out the sweet, sentimental and productive white bloodline.

    • Yes, it is indeed about the hatred the vile feel for the beautiful.

      The key problem our race has is naiveté. As I never tire of repeating, having learned several northern-european languages, the secondary meaning in the dictionary of “blue-eyed” in German, Finnish, Danish, Swedish and Norwegian, and the tertiary meaning in English as well, is NAIVE.

      We MUST grasp that we as a race, especially those of northern stock, have a lethal flaw: WE ARE NATURALLY NAIVE. (And all whites have blue eyes in their family tree, even if their own are brown, hazel, green or gray.)

      I have been guilty of this myself, imputing my motives to others (such as kindness and willingness to help a chap in need) but these “scorpions” revealed themselves sooner or later as they really were — treacherous, vile, thankless creatures who delight in backstabbing a friend and, believe me in this, feel nothing but sheer contempt for anyone naive enough to help and trust them.

      We must, as individuals and as a race, develop that third eye of intuition and sense the evil lurking in others.

      The ancient tale of the frog and the scorpion should be memorized by every white child.

      Notice how the artist gave the frog blue eyes?

  2. Pp In Deutschland kam es vor und während der Wiedervereinigung 1990 zu mehreren Attentaten auf Politiker und Banker.

    Zwei Attentate passierten 1990:

    Ein “geistig verwirrter” Mann schoss Wolfgang Schäuble (CDU) bei einer Wahlkampfveranstaltung nieder.

    Und eine “geistig verwirrte” Frau stach Oscar Lafontaine (Linkspartei) mit einem Messer auf einer Wahlveranstaltung nieder.

    Beide überlebten, und in beiden Fällen wussten die beiden Täter nicht wieso sie das gemacht haben…

  3. I wrote you some time ago. Your website was interesting and is clearly even better now. I mentioned that there is much circumstantial evidence that I was trafficked to the MKULTRA program. I believe that my extended family on both sides knew exactly what was going on. My brothers and I were to be sold for profit, to be used as medical slaves. I reel every day, flooded with an understanding of the extreme, depraved cruelty and greed involved. My father was a brilliant, upright man, who knew nothing about the program.

    I am grateful that a swastika was cut into the skin of my arm, when I was two years old, because it confirms my knowledge. My younger brother, Robert had extensive surgery done on him, when he was just eight days old. I used to believe the explanation. Now, I think that he was utilized as a medical research slave and was implanted, at the time. He studied aerospace engineering, sailing through this elite program at the University of Toronto, then lived in Santa Barbara, California. Likely mafia type or satanic families actually isolate victims, so that they cannot outshine other members. I think that my brother was allowed to socialize only with researchers. My brother had a sudden, highly premature, highly suspicious death. My father said that at the moment of my brother’s death, that he– my father –had a sensation in his skull, as if he were being struck with an axe.

    My older brother, Michael, was a very handsome, multifaceted, brilliant person. It is my belief, after looking back upon decades of a pattern, that he was lured to a workplace in Vancouver [British Columbia] by a “girlfriend” (whose father is the chief architect of the C.N. Tower).

    [JdN: The CN Tower in Toronto, on the harbourfront, is the third tallest tower in the world]

    I believe that he was ambushed, falsely accused and given a fraudulent misdiagnosis. At around age twenty, he was a research slave. At that point, my uncle, who is a big land developer, suddenly began to spend time with my brother. I believe that he was the handler.

    Both my father and my older brother had sudden, premature, highly suspicious deaths, only one week apart. At the funeral service, people could be seen and heard gasping. They may well have suspected foul play. The uncle who was my brother’s companion stated at my father’s funeral that my brother had been a burden to my father.

    My father loved my brother and nothing could have been further from the truth –however, my uncle may have thought that it would help prepare the gathering for my brother’s death, which he may well have helped plan.

    Despite having undergone horrific, traumatic torture from my earliest life, I was always full of enthusiasm, high motivation, a desire to make a contribution, empathy, intellectual curiosity, passion to live. Now, I do not know what to cling to. I know that a victim of this horrific torture cannot truly commit suicide –for it would not be suicide, but homicide by the perpetrators.

    When I first read your comment about David Duke being a shill, I doubted it, but now it does seem possible. (My thumbs have been surgically moved about one inch lower on my hands. Horrifyingly, I simply discovered this, once day, having not been aware of when it was done. It was likely done five years ago.) I saw, in a video, that David Duke’s thumbs are attached at the normal placement, next to his knuckles. I do not know if this is relevant.)

    You cannot reach me at this email.

  4. An English comrade wrote me:

    I’m only just getting into your works properly although I’m very aware of your good name floating around truth/nationalist circles but to have just read that has blown my head away. It has also left me feeling emotions I don’t think I’ve experienced before.

    I’m very aware of the rabbit hole and I’m very wise to the depths that it goes, but after diving into such a deep and vast article, it was both a sheer thrill and excitement to read whilst also producing a total lump in my throat. It left me sitting in silence, with eyebrows drawn down, staring at the same wall for a good few minutes before I replied.

    I’m further intrigued about the mysticisms of the German homeland and its exploits and contamination at the hands of Satanists.

    As for the [MK-ULTRA] programme itself, well, you think you can imagine the most horrific things happening in this world. But you will never truly begin to imagine just how dark, just how cold, just how vile, deep and evil it will go. Not just the willingness to let it go there but the sheer f—–g pleasure these entities gain from it.

    Your article has put me in a very dark frame of mind, but not in a bad way, and of course it’s no criticism but instead a much-needed, emotion-invoking piece that is very much welcomed.

    We need to feel these emotions for us to grit our teeth, for us to clench our stomach muscles, and tighten our bodies up in pure anger and defence, and wanting to stop these horrors in their tracks.

    The article itself was amazing and the plethora of information you gave, not just from your writings, but the extra links and images you offer, walked me through it with ease and enjoyment, and it was a wealth of information that I’m still coming back to after sending you this email.

    I’m hoping to start writing myself soon and it’s something I’m nervous about as I have a lot of learning to do but it’s also an arena completely alien to me, one with many intellectuals and seasoned writers like yourself. I’m a die-hard, no-nonsense nationalist, and I stand for a lot and have a lot to say and a very different way of looking at the world. I just hope I can make a decent mark in this circle without being out of my depth. I’m a [tradesman] so all I’ve known all my life is hard manual labour. Writing is now a daunting prospect which I will soon commence.

    God bless you, sir, and speak to you soon.

    • Thank you for your encouraging praise. 🙂

      What I underwent and survived proves two things: 1) that angels watch over all those who strive fanatically to do what is right, and 2) that even the most excruciating trauma imaginable can be overcome.

      Right now, suicide statistics for whites all over are appalling.


      Constant zombie and vampire movies have made things even worse.

      Rather than love, ego dominates — and couples fight and break up constantly.

      There is so little true empathy left.

      It is a microscopic portion of the population that is tormenting the other 99.9%.

      We must be transformed inside, and love and believe in ourselves again — and we can win this.

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